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Grief does not always look the way you expect it to.

Sometimes it looks like what everyone recognizes: the loss of someone you love, the devastation that comes after death, the way a room feels wrong without a certain person in it. But sometimes grief looks like staring at your phone at 2 a.m. unable to sleep, with no way to name what is wrong. Sometimes it looks like a relationship ending, a diagnosis, a job that defined you, a version of your life that you had to let go of without ceremony or acknowledgment. Sometimes it looks like numbness, irritability, a grinding inability to move forward, or a sense that you are living slightly outside of your own life.

All of it is grief. And all of it is worth taking seriously.

In South Asian families, grief often gets compressed into something private, handled quietly, moved through quickly, and not talked about. There is a version of strength in that. But there is also real damage. And if you are on this page, some part of you suspects that what you have been carrying deserves more than silence.

You are right.

What Grief Actually Is

Grief is the response to loss. It is that simple, and that wide.

The losses that trigger it are not limited to death, though death is the most recognized form. Grief can follow the end of a marriage or a long-term relationship. It can follow a miscarriage or the inability to have children. It can follow the loss of a job that was central to your identity, a diagnosis that changed your sense of your future, or the slow erosion of a friendship that mattered deeply.

Grief can follow a move – especially an immigration, especially the kind that is also a rupture, where you left everything behind and the life you arrived to was never quite what you imagined. Grief can follow the loss of a dream you had for yourself that quietly became impossible. It can follow the realization that your parents are aging and that the version of them you have always known is changing. It can follow the loss of a self you used to be.

None of these losses need to be dramatic to be real. The measure of grief is not the magnitude of the event as the world would judge it. The measure is what it costs you. And if it is costing you – your sleep, your presence, your ability to feel anything, your ability to feel the right things – then it is worth bringing into a room and looking at carefully.

When Grief Hits Differently in South Asian Families

I want to talk about the specific shape grief takes in South Asian communities, because it is often a different shape than the mainstream narrative allows for.

In many South Asian families, there is no space for grief as an extended experience. You cry at the funeral, you observe the rituals – the antim ardas, the bhog, the ceremonies that bring community together in loss – and then you are expected to return to function. Life goes on. The children still need to eat. Work still needs to happen. And being seen as the one who cannot cope carries its own kind of shame.

This is not a criticism of the cultural traditions around death in South Asian communities. Many of them are genuinely beautiful – the collective gathering, the prayers, the food, the way community shows up in the first days. But the collective rituals have a built-in timeline. And grief rarely follows a timeline.

So what happens when the forty days of prayer end and you are still not okay? When everyone has gone home and the casseroles have stopped coming and you are alone with the absence and it is somehow larger now than it was before? You learn to keep it to yourself. You learn that the appropriate response to “how are you doing?” is “I am managing.” You learn to grieve in private.

And the silence becomes its own kind of weight.

The Losses That Do Not Fit a Narrative

There is another layer for South Asian families: the losses that the community does not have language for, or that it actively discourages naming.

A divorce in a family where divorce is shameful is a form of loss that cannot be grieved openly. You lost a marriage, possibly a vision of your future, possibly a community and a set of in-laws, possibly a version of yourself. But you are also supposed to get on with it quietly, protect the children, and not make a fuss about your pain. There may be people who treat your divorce as a character flaw rather than a grief.

Pregnancy loss – miscarriage, stillbirth, infertility – is often handled in silence in South Asian families. “Don’t tell anyone” is the instruction. It was not meant to be. Move on. And so you carry it alone, without the rituals, without the acknowledgment, sometimes without anyone outside of you and your partner even knowing that there was something to lose. That kind of invisible grief is some of the heaviest kind.

The loss of someone overseas whom you could not be present with when they died is a particular kind of anguish that many diaspora families know too well. You got a phone call. You did not get to say goodbye. You attended the funeral over a video screen, or not at all, because flights were impossible or you could not leave work or the pandemic made travel unthinkable. And the grief has nowhere to land because you were not there for it. The rituals happened without you. You grieve someone’s absence while being absent yourself from the community of people who also grieve them.

For the second generation – those of us raised in the diaspora, who grew up here while grandparents and aunties and uncles lived there – this rupture can feel especially disorienting. These were the people who connected you to your roots. Who knew you before you became whoever you became in America. And when they are gone, something goes with them that cannot fully be replaced.

The Pressure to Grieve “Correctly”

There is often an unspoken instruction set around grief, and it differs by community, family, and circumstance. In some families, you are supposed to be visibly devastated for a defined period and then return to functioning. In others, overt emotional expression is itself seen as unseemly – grief should be dignified, controlled, private. Some losses are allowed public recognition and some are not.

And then there is the grief timeline. Six months in, people who were patient begin to wonder when you are going to be yourself again. A year in, the check-ins have mostly stopped. Two years in, you have learned to perform okay-ness so consistently that even the people closest to you do not know you are still not okay.

Grief does not care about the timeline you were given. And there is nothing wrong with you if yours is lasting longer than everyone around you expected.

Complicated Grief: When It Will Not Lift

For some people, grief does not follow the trajectory that most people assume – that initial acute pain gradually softening into something bearable, life slowly reorganizing itself around the loss. For some people, grief gets stuck. It is called complicated grief, or prolonged grief disorder, and it is more common than many people realize.

With complicated grief, the loss remains as raw and immediate as it was in the early days, even years later. You might find yourself unable to stop reviewing the circumstances of the death, wondering what could have been different. You might feel that life without this person or this thing is simply not worth living in the same way. You might be unable to talk about the loss without being overwhelmed, or alternatively, unable to talk about it at all. You might have organized your life around avoiding any reminder of what you lost, and the avoidance is shrinking the world.

Complicated grief responds to therapy. It is not a permanent state. But it does often need more than time.

How Therapy Helps with Grief

I want to be honest about something: therapy for grief is not about getting over it. I will not be asking you to move through stages, to arrive at acceptance, or to reach a finish line of closure. That is not how grief works, and it is not the goal.

What therapy does is help you carry it differently.

Grief is not something you solve. It is something you learn to integrate. The loss becomes part of you – part of your story, part of what has shaped you – without consuming everything else. You can think about the person or the thing you lost without being pulled under. You can be present in your life as it is now while still holding tenderness for what was. You can carry the love without being imprisoned by the absence.

Getting there takes time and space and someone who can witness what you are holding without flinching. In our sessions, I will not rush you. I will not tell you that it has been long enough or that you should be further along by now. I will not offer you platitudes about everything happening for a reason or the person being in a better place.

I will sit with you in it. I will help you give language to what you have been holding without words. I will help you identify the places where grief has gotten stuck and what might allow it to move. And I will help you figure out what a life that holds this loss, and is still worth living, might look like.

We might work with CBT to examine the beliefs and thought patterns that have formed around the loss – the guilt, the counterfactuals, the sense that you should have done something differently. We might use IFS to work with the parts of you that are protecting you from the full weight of the grief and the parts that are ready to finally let it be seen. For clients who have complicated or traumatic grief – a sudden loss, a violent death, a loss with unresolved rupture – EMDR can help with the processing that ordinary grief work cannot fully reach.

Grief in the South Asian Diaspora: Losing What Connected You to Home

There is a grief specific to diaspora life that I want to name directly.

When you lose an elder in your family who stayed in India, or Pakistan, or wherever your family came from, you do not just lose a person. You lose a living connection to a place and a culture that you have been holding at a distance your whole life. You lose the person who remembered you as a child, who spoke to you in the mother tongue, who cooked the food that meant home. You lose something that was already complicated – a relationship maintained across oceans, across time zones, across visits that were never long enough – and the loss echoes in ways that feel too large to name.

And because you lived here and they lived there, and because the relationship was maintained through phone calls and WhatsApp videos and gifts sent in suitcases, there may be people around you who do not understand why this loss is hitting you as hard as it is. You were not there every day. The loss can feel, from the outside, like it should be manageable.

It is not. The losses that were already partial – relationships lived in fragments across geography and time – often hurt in their own particular way, because the loss finalizes a rupture that was always already there.

You are allowed to grieve that. All of it. The person, and the connection, and the version of yourself that existed in relationship to them, and the homeland you were already at a distance from. Grief that does not have a clean shape is still grief.

What Sessions Look Like

When you first reach out, we will start with your story. Not just the loss itself, but the context – who you are, what this loss means, what it has disrupted in your life, and what you are most struggling with right now. I will not rush to interventions or strategies. Understanding what you are carrying comes first.

From there, we move at your pace. Some sessions will feel like a release – finally having space to say things you have not been able to say. Others will feel more like excavation, carefully working through what has been buried. Some sessions will feel neutral, and that neutrality might itself feel strange if you have been in acute grief for a long time.

I work with grief as both an emotional experience and a relational one. Loss changes not only how you feel but how you exist in your relationships, your family system, your sense of yourself. All of that is part of what we work with.

Sessions are conducted via secure, HIPAA-compliant video, available throughout Illinois.

Related Services

Grief often shows up alongside other things. If you are also navigating:

• PTSD & Trauma Therapy — for grief tied to traumatic loss or violent death
• Depression Therapy — for the grief that has settled into persistent low mood
• South Asian Therapy — for culturally complex mourning, disenfranchised grief, and family dynamics around loss
• Postpartum Therapy — for pregnancy loss, infant loss, or birth experiences that did not go as hoped

Also worth reading: Intergenerational Trauma in South Asian Families

You Do Not Have to Carry This Quietly

Whatever you have lost – whoever, whatever form it has taken, however long you have been holding it – you deserve a space to put it down and actually look at it. Not to get rid of it. Not to make it go away. But to stop carrying it alone.

I offer a free 15-minute consultation. You can tell me a little about where you are, ask whatever questions you have, and decide if this feels like the right fit.

Schedule your free consultation or call me at (224) 497-2893.

Grief kept in silence does not heal. It just waits. Let us give it somewhere to go.